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WIP Wednesday
Really struggling with my fandom feels this week, namely because JKR continues to be a sentient pile of flaming garbage. This has been true for a while, and for a while it's felt like enough to not buy any HP merchandise or engage with any new content. Fandom felt like something separate from that. But lately I've been feeling very conflicted over whether I even want to keep writing HP fic, or continue to be a part of HP fandom. I don't want to leave, I love this pairing and this world, and I have several hundred thousand words of unfinished fic I'd really like to keep writing, and it's really hard to walk away from something I've poured so much time and energy and love into, and was such a big part of my life for so long. But she's truly awful, and shows no signs of ever becoming less awful, and it's started to feel like even this little bit of indirect support is too much. I really don't know what to do.
Anyhow. WIPs.
New words this week : 2937 words and they may be over the place but they're there.
WIPs worked on this week : 2, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ If It's Not Rough : 300 words which brings the total to 4769 words and I've got the beginning done, and the ending mostly done, and just need to get through the smutty, smutty middle.
The Old Guard
☆ Old Guard Misc. : 2637 words which brings the total to 23,090 words and I'm still just throwing words at about ten different fics.
Anyhow. WIPs.
New words this week : 2937 words and they may be over the place but they're there.
WIPs worked on this week : 2, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ If It's Not Rough : 300 words which brings the total to 4769 words and I've got the beginning done, and the ending mostly done, and just need to get through the smutty, smutty middle.
The Old Guard
☆ Old Guard Misc. : 2637 words which brings the total to 23,090 words and I'm still just throwing words at about ten different fics.
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WIP Wednesday
Tired, surgery last week and was pretty sore afterward, but am feeling better now and nothing is actively on fire? At least for the moment? Waiting for that to change. I'm glued to the tv today watching coverage of hurricane Ian. Most of my family is scattered across the central part of Florida, thankfully all north of where Ian's made landfall so they shouldn't be getting the worst of it, but still very much in its path.
New words this week : 9575 words and even though this is for the entire month of September so far, I'm still pretty surprised. But I guess it makes sense. I haven't spent that much time writing, probably not more than 5-10 minutes every couple of days, but it's been a completely no-fucks-given sort of thing where I'm just jotting down bits of dialogue and scene notes and stuff so wordcount-wise it's been pretty productive. Amazing how fast I can write where I'm not concerned about making it "good".
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (but only on a technicality, there have been new ideas but it's all in the same doc)
The Old Guard
☆ Old Guard Misc. : 9575 words which brings the total to 18,142 words and this is 100% not at all the thing I'm supposed to be working on right now. I should be writing my original thing but I have no inspiration/motivation. I really want to be working on my ex-HDBB fic, but I can't because I feel guilty I'm not working on my original thing. So instead I've been ignoring both of them to throw words at Old Guard fic and I don't know what I'm even doing anymore.
New words this week : 9575 words and even though this is for the entire month of September so far, I'm still pretty surprised. But I guess it makes sense. I haven't spent that much time writing, probably not more than 5-10 minutes every couple of days, but it's been a completely no-fucks-given sort of thing where I'm just jotting down bits of dialogue and scene notes and stuff so wordcount-wise it's been pretty productive. Amazing how fast I can write where I'm not concerned about making it "good".
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (but only on a technicality, there have been new ideas but it's all in the same doc)
The Old Guard
☆ Old Guard Misc. : 9575 words which brings the total to 18,142 words and this is 100% not at all the thing I'm supposed to be working on right now. I should be writing my original thing but I have no inspiration/motivation. I really want to be working on my ex-HDBB fic, but I can't because I feel guilty I'm not working on my original thing. So instead I've been ignoring both of them to throw words at Old Guard fic and I don't know what I'm even doing anymore.
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September Goals
2022 Total Wordcount Goal : 27275 / 100,000
2022 Total Writing Days : 40 / 365
JUNE-JULY-AUGUST
It's been a while. Again. Life continues to be A Thing and I am doing my best. I've actually done some writing, just have been very bad at tracking it.
SEPTEMBER
Going to give it another try to be around more often and more consistent with the writing. My schedule has recently shifted to give me some more free time so I'm hopeful that maybe this time it'll stick.
September Wordcount Goal : 10k and that might be aiming high because I'm still firmly in the planning phase of what I plan to be working on and then it takes me a little while to really dig in and get traction once I begin the actual writing, so we shall see how that goes.
September Fics to Focus On
☆ If It's Not Rough : because I didn't get anything posted at all last year and I'd love to get at least one thing done this year. Estimated wordcount, 7k.
☆ Original Thing : I'm going to give traditional publishing another try, and I have an idea that I'm excited about, so now I just need to write the damn thing. And I'm weirdly nervous about it?? It's been about 15 years since the last time I seriously worked on an original idea vs. fanfic, and now I'm kind of afraid I forgot how to come up with my own ideas and my own characters and do my own worldbuilding and on and on. But I've got the idea and I've (hopefully) got the time, so here goes. Estimated wordcount, 60k.
2022 Total Writing Days : 40 / 365
JUNE-JULY-AUGUST
It's been a while. Again. Life continues to be A Thing and I am doing my best. I've actually done some writing, just have been very bad at tracking it.
SEPTEMBER
Going to give it another try to be around more often and more consistent with the writing. My schedule has recently shifted to give me some more free time so I'm hopeful that maybe this time it'll stick.
September Wordcount Goal : 10k and that might be aiming high because I'm still firmly in the planning phase of what I plan to be working on and then it takes me a little while to really dig in and get traction once I begin the actual writing, so we shall see how that goes.
September Fics to Focus On
☆ If It's Not Rough : because I didn't get anything posted at all last year and I'd love to get at least one thing done this year. Estimated wordcount, 7k.
☆ Original Thing : I'm going to give traditional publishing another try, and I have an idea that I'm excited about, so now I just need to write the damn thing. And I'm weirdly nervous about it?? It's been about 15 years since the last time I seriously worked on an original idea vs. fanfic, and now I'm kind of afraid I forgot how to come up with my own ideas and my own characters and do my own worldbuilding and on and on. But I've got the idea and I've (hopefully) got the time, so here goes. Estimated wordcount, 60k.
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WIP Wednesday
Not many new words, but there were words! At this point I will take that. Tough week, busy week, exhausting week. Had one doctor appointment today that I was anxious about, and another scheduled for Friday I'm even more anxious about.
New words this week : 1553 words and it was kind of a struggle.
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ ex-HDBB : 1553 words which brings the total to 104,586 words and though it wasn't too much wordcount-wise, progress was made! Had a scene that was mostly a bunch of dialogue snippets and am slowly working through filling in the gaps and connecting them. Debating whether to write the next half of the scene I'd originally planned or if I ought to just gloss over it, or skip it entirely?? That's part of what's slowing me up here. Also added plans for another half-scene at the end of the chapter.
New words this week : 1553 words and it was kind of a struggle.
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ ex-HDBB : 1553 words which brings the total to 104,586 words and though it wasn't too much wordcount-wise, progress was made! Had a scene that was mostly a bunch of dialogue snippets and am slowly working through filling in the gaps and connecting them. Debating whether to write the next half of the scene I'd originally planned or if I ought to just gloss over it, or skip it entirely?? That's part of what's slowing me up here. Also added plans for another half-scene at the end of the chapter.
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WIP Wednesday
I managed to get a little bit of writing done, mostly over the weekend, so just popping in to do a quick WIP Wednesday post before I go collapse on the sofa for the evening. What's that old saying about "time, motivation and inspiration: pick two"? I'm in a phase with tons of inspiration, but the other two have been in pretty short supply and it's been a coin toss which one stops me from writing... Tonight I've got inspiration and time (a whole 30ish minutes before I need to start winding down for bed) but I'm so exhausted that I think I'm going to spend it collapsed on the sofa watching something mindless on tv.
New words this week : 3197 words and genuinely surprised I got even that much! I've been making an effort to write a little bit each day, and I'm always pleasantly surprised by how effective that is for getting some words down. Shocking, I know. If I make time for writing, I get words written!
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ ex-HDBB : 3197 words which brings the total to 103,767 words and that puts me over 100k!! And there is still so so so much left to do that I'm starting to feel a little bit iffy about my estimate... I thought I'd be able to get it wrapped up in another 50k, but at 80-90k-ish we've only just got the Realization of Feelings and the beginning of the Pining and... yeah. Related, how the fuck do I write pining again?? XD
New words this week : 3197 words and genuinely surprised I got even that much! I've been making an effort to write a little bit each day, and I'm always pleasantly surprised by how effective that is for getting some words down. Shocking, I know. If I make time for writing, I get words written!
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ ex-HDBB : 3197 words which brings the total to 103,767 words and that puts me over 100k!! And there is still so so so much left to do that I'm starting to feel a little bit iffy about my estimate... I thought I'd be able to get it wrapped up in another 50k, but at 80-90k-ish we've only just got the Realization of Feelings and the beginning of the Pining and... yeah. Related, how the fuck do I write pining again?? XD
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June Goals
2022 Total Wordcount Goal : 8219 / 100,000
2022 Total Writing Days : 21 / 365
FEBRUARY-MARCH-APRIL-MAY
So, hello again! Not much writing has happened recently. To be fair, not a whole lot of anything productive has happened recently, either. I need to stop saying "I think things are getting better now!" because as soon as I do, the universe seems to take great pleasure in slapping me down. Life has been a constant parade of little things, punctuated with a big awful thing just often enough that it feels like I can't even find my footing before it gets knocked out from under me again, and I am so, so tired.
JUNE
Things aren't better, but I'm starting to go out of my mind a little bit from the lack of creative outlet so I'm going to try to get back into the swing of writing again.
June Wordcount Goal : 8k and that might be aiming a little high for not having written anything in months and months, but I feel like I want to write for the first time in ages and I'm hoping for some momentum from that.
June Fics to Focus On
☆ If It's Not Rough : because I didn't get anything posted at all last year and I'd love to get at least one thing done this year. Estimated wordcount, 7k.
☆ ex-HDBB : I'd been making some good progress on this before, and I'm hoping to get back to it. I'm still struggling with lack of enthusiasm, which I guess is understandable since I've been reading and re-reading and re-re-reading etc this thing for almost seven years at this point. I tend to do the bulk of my editing as I go and then just do a lot of polishing as my final editing pass, so the first chunk of it is in good enough shape that I've been toying with the idea of starting to post this thing here on Dreamwidth, adding new chapters as I finish them. Ideally I'd get some comments and feedback, and that'd help build enthusiasm and motivation for finishing, then I'd have the whole thing beta-ed and do a last round of edits and polishing before posting it to AO3. I know Dreamwidth is pretty quiet these days and some people don't like to read WIPs, so I don't know if that's even worth doing or if I'd just be hurling words into the void. (If you are interested in reading along, please let me know!) Estimated total wordcount, 150k.
2022 Total Writing Days : 21 / 365
FEBRUARY-MARCH-APRIL-MAY
So, hello again! Not much writing has happened recently. To be fair, not a whole lot of anything productive has happened recently, either. I need to stop saying "I think things are getting better now!" because as soon as I do, the universe seems to take great pleasure in slapping me down. Life has been a constant parade of little things, punctuated with a big awful thing just often enough that it feels like I can't even find my footing before it gets knocked out from under me again, and I am so, so tired.
JUNE
Things aren't better, but I'm starting to go out of my mind a little bit from the lack of creative outlet so I'm going to try to get back into the swing of writing again.
June Wordcount Goal : 8k and that might be aiming a little high for not having written anything in months and months, but I feel like I want to write for the first time in ages and I'm hoping for some momentum from that.
June Fics to Focus On
☆ If It's Not Rough : because I didn't get anything posted at all last year and I'd love to get at least one thing done this year. Estimated wordcount, 7k.
☆ ex-HDBB : I'd been making some good progress on this before, and I'm hoping to get back to it. I'm still struggling with lack of enthusiasm, which I guess is understandable since I've been reading and re-reading and re-re-reading etc this thing for almost seven years at this point. I tend to do the bulk of my editing as I go and then just do a lot of polishing as my final editing pass, so the first chunk of it is in good enough shape that I've been toying with the idea of starting to post this thing here on Dreamwidth, adding new chapters as I finish them. Ideally I'd get some comments and feedback, and that'd help build enthusiasm and motivation for finishing, then I'd have the whole thing beta-ed and do a last round of edits and polishing before posting it to AO3. I know Dreamwidth is pretty quiet these days and some people don't like to read WIPs, so I don't know if that's even worth doing or if I'd just be hurling words into the void. (If you are interested in reading along, please let me know!) Estimated total wordcount, 150k.
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WIP Wednesday
Anxiety was super high over the weekend so not as much writing as I wish I could have managed, but I had a couple of really good days too so I guess it all evened out. Starting to feel more even the past couple of days so I'm pretty optimistic about February getting off to a good start.
New words this week : 3991 words and feeling pretty pleased with the steady progress.
WIPs worked on this week : 2, with 1 new WIP
HP
☆ ex-HDBB : 3982 words which brings the total to 99,380 words and oh it's exciting and terrifying to be within spitting distance of 100k. I'm going to break that this week and am starting to worry about the overall length of this thing...
Supernatural
☆ grace is a terrible influence : 735 words which brings the total to 735 words and it's not so much a fic as it is a mishmash of dialogue and scene notes and such for two different fics. Grace is to blame for all of it.
New words this week : 3991 words and feeling pretty pleased with the steady progress.
WIPs worked on this week : 2, with 1 new WIP
HP
☆ ex-HDBB : 3982 words which brings the total to 99,380 words and oh it's exciting and terrifying to be within spitting distance of 100k. I'm going to break that this week and am starting to worry about the overall length of this thing...
Supernatural
☆ grace is a terrible influence : 735 words which brings the total to 735 words and it's not so much a fic as it is a mishmash of dialogue and scene notes and such for two different fics. Grace is to blame for all of it.
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January Wrap Up / February Goals
2022 Total Wordcount Goal : 8160 / 100,000
2022 Total Writing Days : 13 / 365
JANUARY
Still tentatively getting back into the swing of it, but so far so good! Just a couple of years ago 8k would've been nothing, but after so long without anything and longer still where every word was a struggle, it feels incredible to have gotten that much down.
January Wrap-Up : I finished the month with 8160 words and frankly I'm pleased to have even got that much. A total of 1 WIP and 1 new thing got words, with 1 HP fic getting 7425 words and then 1 Supernatural fic getting 735 damn it Grace.
FEBRUARY
My biggest goal this month is to just keep this sweet, sweet momentum going. Anxiety is still pretty high right now which makes writing tough, but trying my best to work through it.
February Wordcount Goal : 16k and that feels like a dream to have a monthly wordcount that high. But based on how I've been writing in the second half of January I think it might actually be doable...
February Fics to Focus On
☆ If It's Not Rough : because I didn't get anything posted at all last year and I'd love to get at least one thing done this year. Estimated wordcount, 7k.
☆ ex-HDBB : I've made some really good progress on this so far! I finished off two big gaps in scenes that I've been struggling with since last year, I figured out some pacing/pining, I worked a bit on the ending, I did the Realization of Feelings... lots of good stuff! I also ended up adding some bits that I hadn't planned on, but I'm just so happy to be writing again that I'm not even going to stress about what that might do to the overall wordcount. Hoping to finish off another couple of chapters this month. Estimated total wordcount, 150k.
2022 Total Writing Days : 13 / 365
JANUARY
Still tentatively getting back into the swing of it, but so far so good! Just a couple of years ago 8k would've been nothing, but after so long without anything and longer still where every word was a struggle, it feels incredible to have gotten that much down.
January Wrap-Up : I finished the month with 8160 words and frankly I'm pleased to have even got that much. A total of 1 WIP and 1 new thing got words, with 1 HP fic getting 7425 words and then 1 Supernatural fic getting 735 damn it Grace.
FEBRUARY
My biggest goal this month is to just keep this sweet, sweet momentum going. Anxiety is still pretty high right now which makes writing tough, but trying my best to work through it.
February Wordcount Goal : 16k and that feels like a dream to have a monthly wordcount that high. But based on how I've been writing in the second half of January I think it might actually be doable...
February Fics to Focus On
☆ If It's Not Rough : because I didn't get anything posted at all last year and I'd love to get at least one thing done this year. Estimated wordcount, 7k.
☆ ex-HDBB : I've made some really good progress on this so far! I finished off two big gaps in scenes that I've been struggling with since last year, I figured out some pacing/pining, I worked a bit on the ending, I did the Realization of Feelings... lots of good stuff! I also ended up adding some bits that I hadn't planned on, but I'm just so happy to be writing again that I'm not even going to stress about what that might do to the overall wordcount. Hoping to finish off another couple of chapters this month. Estimated total wordcount, 150k.
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June Wrap Up / July Goals
2021 GOALS
2021 Total Wordcount Goal : 30,840 / 100,000
2021 Total Writing Days : 61 / 120
JUNE
Well this has certainly been a month.
June Wrap-Up : I finished the month with 488 words and frankly I'm pleased to have even got that much. A total of 1 WIP & 1 new work got words, with all 488 going into 2 HP fics.
JULY
My biggest goal this month is to try to get back to writing in any capacity. Early July is always SGDQ where I basically lose Mr FTS entirely for about a week, so I'm hopeful that a week of evenings will be enough to get me back in the habit.
July Wordcount Goal : 4k and that might be a bit too high? But if I can make myself sit down and actually write it should be okay.
July Fics to Focus On
☆ If It's Not Rough : because I would really like to get something finished at some point this year, and a PWP seems like it'll be the easiest way to go. Estimated wordcount, 7k.
☆ HD Fan Fair : soooo I signed up for this. I dropped a couple of prompts and took a browse through what other people had prompted and there was one that jumped out and grabbed me and wouldn't let go, so here I am. I have a few snippets sketched out, but am mostly in the letting-it-marinate-in-the-back-of-my-brain stage with it. Might poke at it a little more later this month but probably won't really get traction on it until closer to the due date because that's how my stupid brain works. Estimated wordcount, not gigantic hopefully.
2021 Total Wordcount Goal : 30,840 / 100,000
2021 Total Writing Days : 61 / 120
JUNE
Well this has certainly been a month.
June Wrap-Up : I finished the month with 488 words and frankly I'm pleased to have even got that much. A total of 1 WIP & 1 new work got words, with all 488 going into 2 HP fics.
JULY
My biggest goal this month is to try to get back to writing in any capacity. Early July is always SGDQ where I basically lose Mr FTS entirely for about a week, so I'm hopeful that a week of evenings will be enough to get me back in the habit.
July Wordcount Goal : 4k and that might be a bit too high? But if I can make myself sit down and actually write it should be okay.
July Fics to Focus On
☆ If It's Not Rough : because I would really like to get something finished at some point this year, and a PWP seems like it'll be the easiest way to go. Estimated wordcount, 7k.
☆ HD Fan Fair : soooo I signed up for this. I dropped a couple of prompts and took a browse through what other people had prompted and there was one that jumped out and grabbed me and wouldn't let go, so here I am. I have a few snippets sketched out, but am mostly in the letting-it-marinate-in-the-back-of-my-brain stage with it. Might poke at it a little more later this month but probably won't really get traction on it until closer to the due date because that's how my stupid brain works. Estimated wordcount, not gigantic hopefully.
WIP Wednesday
Lost track of time (what even is time?) and so this is going up a day late.
New words this week : 128 words and feeling a bit aimless. I'm taking a little break from my ex-HDBB fic while I work out whether I ought to try to keep powering through that or if I ought to take the time to fix Always the Moon before I keep going, and feeling at loose ends. Thought it'd be good to get something shorter finished and maybe posted in the meantime while I figure out which bigger project to tackle, and ended up poking through my WIP Folder of Doom and adding a few words here and there. Didn't settle on anything to write, of course. Also didn't make a decision.
WIPs worked on this week : 3, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ 6th year au : 71 words which brings the total to 1125 words and not even sure why I opened the doc in the first place. This is one of several I've got a beginning and only vague ideas of what the actual story is going to be.
☆ death eater draco : 45 which brings the total to 3174 and also not sure why I opened this one. Exploration of how a relationship with Harry would even work if the war dragged on and Draco wholeheartedly believed in the wrong side of it. Still pretty interested in the concept (and the angst!) but given the state of...well, everything else in the world these days, I don't have the emotional bandwith to even begin to write it.
☆ muggle bartender draco : 12 words which brings the total to 1705 words and yet another thing I'm not going to write right now, though I know all of what's going to happen in this one, so again, I'm not sure why I opened it. I meant to go sorting through PWPs because that's what I think I'll have the best chance of actually finishing and then completely didn't do that.
Goal for this week is to actually pick something to write and get back to it.
New words this week : 128 words and feeling a bit aimless. I'm taking a little break from my ex-HDBB fic while I work out whether I ought to try to keep powering through that or if I ought to take the time to fix Always the Moon before I keep going, and feeling at loose ends. Thought it'd be good to get something shorter finished and maybe posted in the meantime while I figure out which bigger project to tackle, and ended up poking through my WIP Folder of Doom and adding a few words here and there. Didn't settle on anything to write, of course. Also didn't make a decision.
WIPs worked on this week : 3, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ 6th year au : 71 words which brings the total to 1125 words and not even sure why I opened the doc in the first place. This is one of several I've got a beginning and only vague ideas of what the actual story is going to be.
☆ death eater draco : 45 which brings the total to 3174 and also not sure why I opened this one. Exploration of how a relationship with Harry would even work if the war dragged on and Draco wholeheartedly believed in the wrong side of it. Still pretty interested in the concept (and the angst!) but given the state of...well, everything else in the world these days, I don't have the emotional bandwith to even begin to write it.
☆ muggle bartender draco : 12 words which brings the total to 1705 words and yet another thing I'm not going to write right now, though I know all of what's going to happen in this one, so again, I'm not sure why I opened it. I meant to go sorting through PWPs because that's what I think I'll have the best chance of actually finishing and then completely didn't do that.
Goal for this week is to actually pick something to write and get back to it.
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WIP Wednesday
Not entirely sure where the last week has gone. I'm still pretty in denial that it's June already. Things are still difficult. I am exhausted. (Are y'all tired of hearing this? I'm certainly tired of saying it...)
New words this week : 230 words and... I guess I'm glad that I had anything at all? The total is actually a little bit higher, I had shuffled off a partly-written scene into a different WIP because I loved what I had but it didn't feel quite right for these characters, and then added some words there, but didn't make note of my starting wordcount so I can't count it.
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ ex-HDBB : 230 words which brings the total to 90,335 words and now that it's not for a fest anymore I can actually say how long it is! I'm anticipating it'll end up somewhere around 150-160k, so, uh. You can see why I felt like the best decision was to drop. XD
New words this week : 230 words and... I guess I'm glad that I had anything at all? The total is actually a little bit higher, I had shuffled off a partly-written scene into a different WIP because I loved what I had but it didn't feel quite right for these characters, and then added some words there, but didn't make note of my starting wordcount so I can't count it.
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ ex-HDBB : 230 words which brings the total to 90,335 words and now that it's not for a fest anymore I can actually say how long it is! I'm anticipating it'll end up somewhere around 150-160k, so, uh. You can see why I felt like the best decision was to drop. XD
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May Wrap Up / June Goals
2021 GOALS
2021 Total Wordcount Goal : 30,352 / 100,000
2021 Total Writing Days : 58 / 120
MAY
...and I thought that April went by fast. Did May even happen?? How in the crap is it fucking June already??
May Wrap-Up : I finished the month with 7,427 words which was well short of my goal, but fuck has Real Life Nonsense been kicking my ass recently. A total of 1 WIP got new words, with all 7,427 going into 1 HP fic.
JUNE
My biggest goal this month is to try to get back to writing at least a few times a week. I've been slacking entirely the last week or so...
June Wordcount Goal : 8k and I think aiming for 2k per week is a bit of a stretch but ultimately doable, considering what else I'm dealing with right now.
June Fics to Focus On
☆ HDBB Fic : I actually ended up dropping out of the fest, but I've made such good progress on this recently that I'd like to try to get it finished up by the end of the year, so. Onward. Still bummed about it because I was really really looking forward to getting to work with an artist, but ultimately I definitely feel like I made the right call. I didn't even realize just how much I was already stressing about the deadline until suddenly it was no longer looming.
☆ Additionally, I'd like to try to get something else finished and posted. Maybe finishing of one of my (several) mostly-written PWPs? Or finally getting the next Don't Think Twice edited and posted? I will have a poke through the WIP Folder of Doom and see what jumps out at me.
2021 Total Wordcount Goal : 30,352 / 100,000
2021 Total Writing Days : 58 / 120
MAY
...and I thought that April went by fast. Did May even happen?? How in the crap is it fucking June already??
May Wrap-Up : I finished the month with 7,427 words which was well short of my goal, but fuck has Real Life Nonsense been kicking my ass recently. A total of 1 WIP got new words, with all 7,427 going into 1 HP fic.
JUNE
My biggest goal this month is to try to get back to writing at least a few times a week. I've been slacking entirely the last week or so...
June Wordcount Goal : 8k and I think aiming for 2k per week is a bit of a stretch but ultimately doable, considering what else I'm dealing with right now.
June Fics to Focus On
☆ HDBB Fic : I actually ended up dropping out of the fest, but I've made such good progress on this recently that I'd like to try to get it finished up by the end of the year, so. Onward. Still bummed about it because I was really really looking forward to getting to work with an artist, but ultimately I definitely feel like I made the right call. I didn't even realize just how much I was already stressing about the deadline until suddenly it was no longer looming.
☆ Additionally, I'd like to try to get something else finished and posted. Maybe finishing of one of my (several) mostly-written PWPs? Or finally getting the next Don't Think Twice edited and posted? I will have a poke through the WIP Folder of Doom and see what jumps out at me.
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WIP Wednesday
Everything is still really hard. I'm on day 4 of a migraine that I thought was gone, it abated with pretty fantastic timing just in time for a video chat last night, and then this morning it came roaring back. Looking at screens doesn't seem to make it any worse right now, as it sometimes does, so there's that at least.
New words this week : 2553 words and I guess that's not too awful considering I didn't get any writing done for half the week. But still well below the pace I need to be hitting to catch up from not making many words the last couple of weeks.
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ HDBB : 2553 words which brings the total to 24,781 new words and I've just gone ahead and dropped out. I'm so so disappointed because getting to work with an artist on this was something I've really been looking forward to, now more than ever that my life has pretty much imploded. But what it's come down to is that to finish on time, I would either have to cut down on what I want to do to make it short enough to finish which would compromise the story I want to tell, or I would have to sacrifice literally every available second of free time (and probably quite a bit of sleep, too) in order to get it all written in time, which I've done before and makes for a shitty, stress-filled writing experience, and frankly right now the last thing I need in my life is more stress. So, my new goal is to get it finished and posted by the end of the year. Which, hey, at least means I get to talk about this thing in more detail now that I don't have to preserve anonymity, which I guess is a little bit of a silver lining.
New words this week : 2553 words and I guess that's not too awful considering I didn't get any writing done for half the week. But still well below the pace I need to be hitting to catch up from not making many words the last couple of weeks.
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ HDBB : 2553 words which brings the total to 24,781 new words and I've just gone ahead and dropped out. I'm so so disappointed because getting to work with an artist on this was something I've really been looking forward to, now more than ever that my life has pretty much imploded. But what it's come down to is that to finish on time, I would either have to cut down on what I want to do to make it short enough to finish which would compromise the story I want to tell, or I would have to sacrifice literally every available second of free time (and probably quite a bit of sleep, too) in order to get it all written in time, which I've done before and makes for a shitty, stress-filled writing experience, and frankly right now the last thing I need in my life is more stress. So, my new goal is to get it finished and posted by the end of the year. Which, hey, at least means I get to talk about this thing in more detail now that I don't have to preserve anonymity, which I guess is a little bit of a silver lining.
WIP Wednesday
Things are still hard. I've just been completely exhausted this week so some of my writing time has gone to sleeping instead, and mostly everything has just been a great big struggle.
New words this week : 2108 words and that's unfortunately not back up to the pace I need to be hitting.
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ HDBB : 2108 words which brings the total to 22,228 new words and I'm at the point of just throwing words at this thing. Are they good words? Useful words? I don't know at this point. Beginning to worry I'm underestimating the final wordcount because I keep coming up with threads I need to tie off and bits I need to expand on. Really beginning to worry about being able to hit 80% by the next check in, and that's with the probably-underestimated wordcount.
New words this week : 2108 words and that's unfortunately not back up to the pace I need to be hitting.
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ HDBB : 2108 words which brings the total to 22,228 new words and I'm at the point of just throwing words at this thing. Are they good words? Useful words? I don't know at this point. Beginning to worry I'm underestimating the final wordcount because I keep coming up with threads I need to tie off and bits I need to expand on. Really beginning to worry about being able to hit 80% by the next check in, and that's with the probably-underestimated wordcount.
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WIP Wednesday
Everything is awful. Mothers Day is always a tough holiday for me so I was already struggling some with that approaching. I had my second vaccine dose and side effects kicked my ass the day after. And unfortunately my cat who was having health issues took a turn and we ended up putting him to sleep. I'm a complete wreck about it. I miss my buddy so much.
New words this week : 1597 words and that's I guess not too bad, all things considered. I haven't written anything since last Friday.
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ HDBB : 1597 words which brings the total to 20,120 new words and starting to have doubts about hitting 80% in time for the June check in. I was on track to get there only if I kept my current previous pace, and now I've got five zero days in a row.
New words this week : 1597 words and that's I guess not too bad, all things considered. I haven't written anything since last Friday.
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ HDBB : 1597 words which brings the total to 20,120 new words and starting to have doubts about hitting 80% in time for the June check in. I was on track to get there only if I kept my current previous pace, and now I've got five zero days in a row.
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WIP Wednesday
Real Life continues to be a thing, unfortunately. I am exhausted.
New words this week : 3571 words and that's down a bit from last week.
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ HDBB : 3571 words which brings the total to 18,532 new words and it's coming along. I'm still bogged down in one particular scene but I think I've figured out how to make it work, just need to keep hammering at it. Have also had some feedback and that's given me more to think about. It's coming along, hopefully I will make more progress this week ::fingers crossed:: but I have my second vaccine dose scheduled for Saturday and am anticipating it knocking me on by butt, based on how others I know have tolerated it. So. We shall see.
New words this week : 3571 words and that's down a bit from last week.
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ HDBB : 3571 words which brings the total to 18,532 new words and it's coming along. I'm still bogged down in one particular scene but I think I've figured out how to make it work, just need to keep hammering at it. Have also had some feedback and that's given me more to think about. It's coming along, hopefully I will make more progress this week ::fingers crossed:: but I have my second vaccine dose scheduled for Saturday and am anticipating it knocking me on by butt, based on how others I know have tolerated it. So. We shall see.
April Wrap Up / May Goals
2021 GOALS
2021 Total Wordcount Goal : 22,883 / 100,000
2021 Total Writing Days : 41 / 120
APRIL
It feels like this month went by in a blink, but it was a productive month! The last half of it I managed to write at least 30 minutes every day and it's always amazing how the wordcount stacks up when I actually... make the time to sit down and write. Obvious, yeah, but something I apparently still struggle with XD
April Wrap-Up : I finished the month with 16,652 words which was short of my goal but by less than 400 words and I'm more than willing to round up and call this month a fucking success! Look at all those words!! A total of 1 WIP got new words, with all 16,652 going into 1 HP fic.
MAY
And the goal this month is to keep up this momentum!
May Wordcount Goal : 18k and I rounded up so it's aiming a bit high to keep me on track for reaching 80% by June 7th. Of the ~17k I wrote last month, 12 of it was in the last half when I really buckled down and made writing every day a habit. So I'm pretty optimistic that I'll be able to do this, so long as I keep on task with daily writing.
May Fics to Focus On
☆ HDBB Fic : I'm in kind of a weird place with it. I'm firmly in the this-is-a-garbage-fic-and-I-am-a-garbage-writer phase of things, and I feel like I'm flailing around and just adding words without adding story, and it just feels too big and too scattered and I'm worried the pacing is all wrong, and why even bother with any of it. But then I read back through it and can't really see any of those issues? Anyhow, I've figured out an alpha reader so hopefully getting some feedback will help sort out what's just in my head and what's actually on the page. Looking to make some big progress on it this month and hopefully get a clearer idea of where I need it to end up to tie off subplots/themes/etc.
2021 Total Wordcount Goal : 22,883 / 100,000
2021 Total Writing Days : 41 / 120
APRIL
It feels like this month went by in a blink, but it was a productive month! The last half of it I managed to write at least 30 minutes every day and it's always amazing how the wordcount stacks up when I actually... make the time to sit down and write. Obvious, yeah, but something I apparently still struggle with XD
April Wrap-Up : I finished the month with 16,652 words which was short of my goal but by less than 400 words and I'm more than willing to round up and call this month a fucking success! Look at all those words!! A total of 1 WIP got new words, with all 16,652 going into 1 HP fic.
MAY
And the goal this month is to keep up this momentum!
May Wordcount Goal : 18k and I rounded up so it's aiming a bit high to keep me on track for reaching 80% by June 7th. Of the ~17k I wrote last month, 12 of it was in the last half when I really buckled down and made writing every day a habit. So I'm pretty optimistic that I'll be able to do this, so long as I keep on task with daily writing.
May Fics to Focus On
☆ HDBB Fic : I'm in kind of a weird place with it. I'm firmly in the this-is-a-garbage-fic-and-I-am-a-garbage-writer phase of things, and I feel like I'm flailing around and just adding words without adding story, and it just feels too big and too scattered and I'm worried the pacing is all wrong, and why even bother with any of it. But then I read back through it and can't really see any of those issues? Anyhow, I've figured out an alpha reader so hopefully getting some feedback will help sort out what's just in my head and what's actually on the page. Looking to make some big progress on it this month and hopefully get a clearer idea of where I need it to end up to tie off subplots/themes/etc.
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WIP Wednesday
Somewhat less productive than I'd hoped to be, but did all right considering what Real Life threw at me. A minor round of family drama, and then cat health issues. We're still waiting on test results, but the vet warned us that with what we're seeing, the two most likely outcomes are cancer or heart failure, with the vet's opinion leaning towards heart failure. I'm a little bit of a mess over it.
New words this week : 4578 words and that's somewhat less than last week but not by a huge amount. I'm not quite on track to hit my goal for the month, but if I miss it's actually not going to be by that much! Going to try one last big push to get it, though. ::crosses fingers::
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ HDBB : 4578 words which brings the total to 15,373 new words and it's... coming along, I think. Although I am starting to worry that I've underestimated my total wordcount on this thing. Again. Is anyone surprised by this? XD
New words this week : 4578 words and that's somewhat less than last week but not by a huge amount. I'm not quite on track to hit my goal for the month, but if I miss it's actually not going to be by that much! Going to try one last big push to get it, though. ::crosses fingers::
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ HDBB : 4578 words which brings the total to 15,373 new words and it's... coming along, I think. Although I am starting to worry that I've underestimated my total wordcount on this thing. Again. Is anyone surprised by this? XD
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WIP Wednesday
There were words! Lots of words!! I had my first jab scheduled for Saturday so I was trying to get a little bit ahead in anticipation of needing to take it easy for a couple of days, but then I was totally fine aside from my arm being mildly sore for a day or so, and then I ended up just keeping that momentum going.
New words this week : 5458 words and not only did I manage to write every single day in the last week, I also had not one but TWO 1k+ days which is something that hasn't happened in ages.
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ HDBB : 5458 words which brings the total to 10,795 new words and feel like I'm finally getting traction on this thing. I'm deep into the I-have-no-idea-what-I'm-doing phase of things, and I still am fairly worried over the pacing, and still have not sorted out an alpha reader, but. Words! Lots of new words! Trying to focus on the positives.
New words this week : 5458 words and not only did I manage to write every single day in the last week, I also had not one but TWO 1k+ days which is something that hasn't happened in ages.
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ HDBB : 5458 words which brings the total to 10,795 new words and feel like I'm finally getting traction on this thing. I'm deep into the I-have-no-idea-what-I'm-doing phase of things, and I still am fairly worried over the pacing, and still have not sorted out an alpha reader, but. Words! Lots of new words! Trying to focus on the positives.
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WIP Wednesday
Feeling a little more rested this week which has been a relief. No idea what came over me with the random exhaustion, but very glad to be back to more normal levels of tired. At least I am able to be somewhat productive this way, and I did a bunch of very fun things this weekend with my newly returned energy! I cleaned out the basement pantry! I did laundry! I even did some writing!
New words this week : 2310 words and about half of them were from a single day! The best writing day I've had in months!!
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ HDBB : 2310 words which brings the total to 5337 new words and I'm making more words on it which is good, but I really feel like I'm floundering. The pacing feels wrong to me and I just keep adding more smut because, I don't even know why, but it doesn't help with the pacing issues I can tell you that. I'm vividly remembering just why this thing has been languishing unfinished for so long, because I am completely useless at writing long things without a ton of handholding and cheerleading, and I haven't had an alpha reader for years. I've actually reached out to a couple of people but one declined and the other hasn't responded, and I'm not too sure what to do at this point. I mean, besides keep adding more smut, apparently, I don't even know. I think I'm entering the "this is a garbage fic and I am a garbage writer" phase of things and it'll pass, I know it will because it always does, but man is it easier with someone else along for the ride.
New words this week : 2310 words and about half of them were from a single day! The best writing day I've had in months!!
WIPs worked on this week : 1, with no new WIPs (yay!)
HP
☆ HDBB : 2310 words which brings the total to 5337 new words and I'm making more words on it which is good, but I really feel like I'm floundering. The pacing feels wrong to me and I just keep adding more smut because, I don't even know why, but it doesn't help with the pacing issues I can tell you that. I'm vividly remembering just why this thing has been languishing unfinished for so long, because I am completely useless at writing long things without a ton of handholding and cheerleading, and I haven't had an alpha reader for years. I've actually reached out to a couple of people but one declined and the other hasn't responded, and I'm not too sure what to do at this point. I mean, besides keep adding more smut, apparently, I don't even know. I think I'm entering the "this is a garbage fic and I am a garbage writer" phase of things and it'll pass, I know it will because it always does, but man is it easier with someone else along for the ride.