WIP Wednesday

[firethesound]

Really struggling with my fandom feels this week, namely because JKR continues to be a sentient pile of flaming garbage. This has been true for a while, and for a while it's felt like enough to not buy any HP merchandise or engage with any new content. Fandom felt like something separate from that. But lately I've been feeling very conflicted over whether I even want to keep writing HP fic, or continue to be a part of HP fandom. I don't want to leave, I love this pairing and this world, and I have several hundred thousand words of unfinished fic I'd really like to keep writing, and it's really hard to walk away from something I've poured so much time and energy and love into, and was such a big part of my life for so long. But she's truly awful, and shows no signs of ever becoming less awful, and it's started to feel like even this little bit of indirect support is too much. I really don't know what to do.

Anyhow. WIPs.

New words this week : 2937 words and they may be over the place but they're there.

WIPs worked on this week : 2, with no new WIPs (yay!)

HP
☆ If It's Not Rough : 300 words which brings the total to 4769 words and I've got the beginning done, and the ending mostly done, and just need to get through the smutty, smutty middle.


The Old Guard
☆ Old Guard Misc. : 2637 words which brings the total to 23,090 words and I'm still just throwing words at about ten different fics.

Comments

[walbergr]

Good WIPs! Nearly 3k words in a week is awesome (in my opinion). Good luck on the smutty, smutty middle.

I totally relate to the feeling of ambivalence about engaging in HP fandom. I've never gotten past a freewheeling ideation document on a HP fic document, and I'd definitely find it harder to say goodbye if I was also shutting the books on tons of unfinished work. Even if you're not sure you'll ever go back to it in the normal course of your life that's so different from deciding that you're going to put it in the garbage.

I think you put something on tumblr recently about having not recently revisited the Harry Potter books, and for me that's a big part of the reason I feel shaky on HP fandom -- it feels like the primary material isn't something I will likely ever get back to. I can't read it without just kind of getting a sour taste in my mouth. I know lots of people who don't feel that way (I'm married to one of them). But at this point I feel a little bit like fandom is the primary source material I'm interested in, but it's hard to disentangle. Anyway, sending sympathy, parallel-navel gazing, and hugs (if you want them) to you.